blogging

So, I decided to get a blog. I thought it was a cool idea, and now maybe I won't spend so much time on facebook. I'd like to blog more, cuz I realized how much I enjoyed writing facebook notes. So enough about facebook. I really am looking forward to writing more--it'll take some more extra thought to write really cool things, cuz it's not my best area of talent...haha, but I love reading awesome stuff--does that count? I love literature quite a bit. I love finding stuff that has hidden meaning, symbolism, etc. I'm gonna work on writing it here...or maybe I'll just give boring updates of my day. We'll see how strongly I hold to that.
Main point: I'm excited to try some awesome new things with this blog.

the end.

All about me...

This is another one of my facebook notes where you're supposed to post 25 things about yourself...

1. I'm kinda scared about doing this. No joke. I have no idea what I'm gonna say. I almost thought about asking someone if they had a hard time coming up with things....which may be was stupid
2. so then I figured I'd just start typing. =]
3. I really like to sing, and act, and be silly.
4. Sometimes stupid things (mainly things I cause) get in the way and I can't be as happy and silly as I'd like. But I really do love being ME; and want it to be pleasant for everybody else. Any suggestions?
5. I do ballet; and enjoy it
6. Greenleaf Music and Arts Academy is the most awesome, uplifting place EVER.
7. The PEOPLE at Greenleaf Music and Arts Academy are THE MOST amazing part of my life and I would never be able to live without them. Love you all!
8. My Savior, my Heavenly Daddy is worthy of all my love--I am not worthy of any of His, however, he freely offers it to me, and I sometimes never give Him any.
9. I really love people. I love to make them happy and joyful and energized. I want to solve people's problems and make everything better. But it's God's job to slap that band-aid on your forehead; mine is to pray for the wound to heal.
10. Sometimes I don't know how to get away from myself to focus on other people. I need help.
11. I'm working on it--pray for me. =]
12. My brothers (David and Brian) are the two most amazingly fabulous brothers on the face of this earth. I respect them and love them SO much--they have been great examples to me; and I'm about to cry...just cuz they are so great. =]
13. I'm really thankful for my parents. They rock.
13. I wish I read more books; I really love to read, but I can't do it unless I have a ton of free time. ha.
14. I LOVE to learn and hope to discover and learn new things for the rest of my life.
15. I really like making lists....like.. I LOVE making lists.
16.This is actually really fun! I should do this more often.
17. Darn, I wasted one.
18. Aghhh! another one!
18. I like to play volleyball, and like to drive. ooh, and watch football. haha. I just snuck like 4 into one! (that's not cheating, is it?) :D
19. I love YOU very much. yes, I do.
20. ooh, I really really love to watch old TV shows. (Dick Van Dyke, Mary Tyler Moore, Hogan's Heroes, I Love Lucy, Get Smart, Columbo, Mission Impossible...etc)
21. I really like cooking desserts...yum
21 1/2. I've never been to Antarctica.
22. I think little kids are amazing...they bring me so much joy. ♥
23. I really like the Psalms..and Philippians, and all those Epistles.
24. I want go to MNU...=]
25. I cheated and did like 30... ;] can you figure it out?
Okay, I can't resist.
26. I have two really cute kittens named Tucker and Grace. They are my BEST friends. =D
27. Movies are really good.
28. I wish Janice had a facebook. But just so you guys know. I love her a lot.
29. I get nervous kind of easily when I'm about to do something important, which I guess is natural, but I hate it. And then I get nervous that I'm gonna get nervous...it messes me up. But I'm getting better. =]
30. loneliness is just a crime, so say hello.
31. I like the movie Daddy Day Care. It's gooood. =] wite dat down.
32. You guys are awesome to have read this far. thanks. if you skipped....shame shame. just kidding. I'm having more fun writing this.. I'm actually kinda learning more about myself... putting a name to the things I normally just think about. :)

Simple Thoughts

This is a note from my facebook in January.


God loves us the way we are, but he loves us too much to leave us that way. -Anonymous

I've been thinking. yay for me.

Life is hard, no?

God is totally on our side; he loves us.
Without His grace and mercy, I don't know where I'd be, nor do I really want to think about it.
I'm not good at life...
My flesh thinks it knows it's stuff...it thinks it knows what it's talking about. It has no idea. I go, "God, why have you let this happen?" Why are things going this way? Things are supposed to be going well for me! You did it wrong!" hmm. I think I'm finding out I'm the one who's wrong.
God always has been, is being, and always will be SO faithful...and always works things out.
I think he's totally there to help us, but sometimes the thing we need the most is a challenge or two...to make sure we are staying strong. That will change us and shape us to his image better than we ever could in a life that is perfect and easy. It glorifies Him to see us trusting and praising him...even when life gives us its worst. ugh. it's so hard, but he doesn't give us more than we can handle.

Isaiah 29:16
You turn things upside down,
as if the potter were thought to be like the clay!
Shall what is formed say to him who formed it,
"He did not make me"?
Can the pot say of the potter,
"He knows nothing"?

He changes our plans--they weren't in fact, our plans to begin with. My flesh-my human nature makes them mine...I think I have rights to them...but He has it under control. WE don't have to worry. He's not going to "mess up my life"...no way. I will let Him mold me and shape me to what I should be. At least, I'm trying...but I fail. lots.

I love Him. I love how he knows everything; sees everything, and hears everything. He is the silent listener at every table. He knows are thoughts, our desires...EVERYTHING. I love that My God is a perfect God; that he loves me unconditionally, and helps me to love others...even when I fail time after time after time after time. It only takes a moment to mess it all up--but he keeps no record of our wrongs--He is amazing. He is loving--he is not "me-first", but is completely patient, kind, and disciplines those he loves gently. *sigh* ♥

Psalm 121-
I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.