I went to the Faithwalkers conference at the end of last year. (If you have the opportunity to go, JUST DO IT). It was fantastic. I really really benefited from it in so many ways. Here's just the beginning of what it emphasized and revealed for me.
God, as my first desire. Not as my ONLY desire--because I believe God has made billions of phenomenal things He wants me to enjoy--but just as my FIRST desire. I know He wants that from me. And I know that when I surrender, and "lose my life" (Matt 10:39), I will GAIN it.
This is simply put, and not my most complex writing. The piano part adds too. But that's beside the point. This song is about me renewing my vows to God (Ps 66:13), and holding onto the victory of Christ tighter than ever before.
I'll make you my first desire
And make myself choose to find life
I'll praise you all the louder when I'm crying
Cause your sovereignty doesn't change because of me
As I learn to keep my vows to you;
Jehovah, God of Peace, please wait for me.
I'll rise up with this boldness you've inspired
The fire in my eyes won't ever die
I'll hold tighter to your truth and your desires
Cause you're making me upright and full of life
As I learn to keep my vows to you;
Jehovah, God of Peace, please wait for me
I'll anticipate your loving words like lightning
Be zealous for what you want me to do
Please don't make me go if you're not with me
I need you more than desperation says
As I learn to keep my vows to you;
Jehovah, God of Peace, please wait for me
©March 2011
