Waiting?

August. Wow. That was fast.

Why do some things fly by, stopping at nothing, while others seem to take forever? And why is it almost always the opposite effect that you'd like it to have?

It's all about our expectations, right?

Expectations are crazy things. I almost wish I didn't have them sometimes. I wish I was completely oblivious to the ways things were "supposed" to be, and how that result would affect me. It feels as if that would be easier. Is it just me?

I let other people dictate TOO much about how I feel. Which is dangerous sometimes. I've learned how to control it more now that I know I have that tendency... but there's still a part of me that, despite my own warning, will get my hopes up for something that will make me happier, something that will make more sense, something that will give me a reason to feel important, etc. How could anyone give me more importance than the One who created me, died for me, and is continually fulfilling an awesome thing in me so long as I'm willing?

After almost 18 years, I've come to a realization:


waiting is so hard.


I've always been told it is, but at the same time, it was hard to know until I felt the sting myself. When my heart felt it, that's when I knew. Here's a crazy question: Is waiting ALWAYS worth it?
Good things come to those who wait, but is there something to be said for staring fear in the face and diving in under the right circumstances? I think so. Thoughts?

oh, and here's some music I like.

Just some thoughts...about LIFE

Billions are breathing
Masses are meditating on meaning
Those living are learning
Those learning are living.
Those LOVING are learning and living.

I'm kinda liking this "life" thing.
Yeah, it's complicated, but only cuz we make it that way. Listen.
You might say people are selfish freaks, and don't understand you, or that you wanna live your own life and people need to back off...but step back and look...

Life means we're living; we're breathing.
Life means we learn, we struggle, we go places, we make friends, we communicate, we interact, we smile, we desire, we need, we go unnoticed, we take the blame, we give, we receive, we wanna be appreciated, we grow up, we mess up, we fall in love, we can't understand, we wait, we rush, we change, we feel, we wonder, we need answers, we laugh, we trust, we forgive, we doubt, we worry, we hope.
It's not about each separate person. We're all living. Right here, right now...


isn't it weird that we were Created to think and live...like this?

people have been living for.....ever. and it's been working for them
the world's not gonna fall apart.
it just isn't.
It can't.

Us people
We don't understand.
we just don't
we're too small, too insignificant
God isn't.
that's why He made us, and He's the go-to man
just don't worry, okay?

Life is like this.
things happen
no getting around it.
the only thing for certain? uncertainty.
That's the hardest thing, but it's life.
don't think so much about doing LIFE as you do about just LIVING
it's really what counts
it's not a tragedy when things don't go as planned. God planned it that way.
our lives are but vapors.....
but HE, HE, is our forever rock....the best EVER.
And he's NOT letting go.
We're not going SOLO in this struggle for full understanding, recognition and love.


Don't take life for granted.


please, HOPE.
once you grasp that rope...
even the frayed end,
you're holding on FOREVER.

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