pretending things are sad

I'm sitting on my kitchen floor. Eating pasta. Almost like they do in movies. Except that in movies, it seems most people sitting on their kitchen floor are backed by an incredible song that magnifies implied emotion while they eat their food and grieve their recent break-up, or lost job, or lost hope. I'm not doing that right now, though, thankfully. Although the real good song wouldn't be bad.

The circumstances in my life aren't horrible at all, in fact. I like to pretend they are at times, when I'm feeling discontent, or jealous, or impatient. And then I go full throttle into self-pity, fear, and doubt, if I really want to. Isn't that stupid? To pretend like life is horrible, when it's not? Self-pity really isn't worth it. But I pretend it is. Things so often tend to be JUST what you make of them. Which is scary.

Some of you have heard me talk about this, and related topics so much recently. I'm just stuck on it.

At this point, I guess I'm dumbfounded at...how I'm where I am and who I am. I could be anybody. But I'm not. Demographics and psychographics could be different, but they're not. I'm here, now, me.

I've been made fearfully and wonderfully (with imperfections) for the purpose of becoming strong in the things I'm worst at by a God who will one day make everything RIGHT again. That's really hope-filled. That's where I get my optimism, I guess. I'm not sure why it was given to me, but I think God knew I'd need it. I'd be down the tuuuuube if I didn't feel hopeful and grateful. This faith is special. I cherish it. I don't deserve to be a part of it. That makes it even more special

"But I will never stop loving him, nor allow my promises to fail." Psalm 86:33.

The really brilliant thing is that no matter how bad your circumstances are, there's still BOATLOADS of compassion, mercy, love, hope, peace, and blessings to cover. We were meant to be overflowing with these things. I selfishly cheat myself out of them all too often.

"For if our hearts condemn us, God is GREATER than our hearts, and knows all things." 1 John 3:20

Don't sabotage yourself. (There's enough junk in this world that does that job).

Just some thoughts...about LIFE

Billions are breathing
Masses are meditating on meaning
Those living are learning
Those learning are living.
Those LOVING are learning and living.

I'm kinda liking this "life" thing.
Yeah, it's complicated, but only cuz we make it that way. Listen.
You might say people are selfish freaks, and don't understand you, or that you wanna live your own life and people need to back off...but step back and look...

Life means we're living; we're breathing.
Life means we learn, we struggle, we go places, we make friends, we communicate, we interact, we smile, we desire, we need, we go unnoticed, we take the blame, we give, we receive, we wanna be appreciated, we grow up, we mess up, we fall in love, we can't understand, we wait, we rush, we change, we feel, we wonder, we need answers, we laugh, we trust, we forgive, we doubt, we worry, we hope.
It's not about each separate person. We're all living. Right here, right now...


isn't it weird that we were Created to think and live...like this?

people have been living for.....ever. and it's been working for them
the world's not gonna fall apart.
it just isn't.
It can't.

Us people
We don't understand.
we just don't
we're too small, too insignificant
God isn't.
that's why He made us, and He's the go-to man
just don't worry, okay?

Life is like this.
things happen
no getting around it.
the only thing for certain? uncertainty.
That's the hardest thing, but it's life.
don't think so much about doing LIFE as you do about just LIVING
it's really what counts
it's not a tragedy when things don't go as planned. God planned it that way.
our lives are but vapors.....
but HE, HE, is our forever rock....the best EVER.
And he's NOT letting go.
We're not going SOLO in this struggle for full understanding, recognition and love.


Don't take life for granted.


please, HOPE.
once you grasp that rope...
even the frayed end,
you're holding on FOREVER.

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